Weekly Whine

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Today I’m going to have a little whine if that’s okay with you!  Don’t worry, I’ll also share a wine colored outfit if that makes up for it!

The Weekly Whine #fashion #inspiration

Yesterday I took off work to accompany my sweet Mamaw to the neurologist.  She is 91 and the trip exhausts both of us each time we have to go.  You see, in my small, sleepy hometown there are no longer any specialists and we have to travel about 50 miles for her visit.  

On this particular trip I decided caring for an elderly person is much like having a pre-schooler again and I just needed to get back into practice. Planning more time than I need for the trip and transitioning between the car and where we need to be, planning our meals around her picky appetite and being prepared for her to say whatever the heck is on her mind no matter who else is around is a must.  

She is beginning to forget just a bit and I believe she asked me the same questions probably no less than 15 times in our short drive which so reminded me of my kids when they were little.  Oh, and of course you have to be prepared for potty accidents because sometimes we just cannot move fast enough to make it.  It was a long day.

Getting older and watching those we love get older is hard but, y’all, I had the best day with her.  My Mamaw, as I’ve shared before, has seen so much sadness in her life.  She has every single reason to just lay it down.  If I had watched all my children become sick and die as well as two husbands, I don’t even know how I would get out of bed each day.  Not only does she get up every day but she puts on her face and she gets all dressed up and she finds a way to smile and make jokes (even if she’s making fun of the doctor’s outfit).  

Of coure she still questions why God would have given her these struggles in life and I’ve finally learned to acknowledge her pain instead of ignoring it and trying to just make her move on already.  Somehow losing a bit of her short term memory has lead her to remember things from long ago and she has shared so many stories with me about my dad, his siblings and the early relationship between she and my grandpa.  Sweet, beautiful memories which I need to hear to remember she once had it all. It’s such a sweet and sorrowful reminder that every single day is a gift and I need to stop with my petty whining and soak it all up.

The past week I caught myself feeling sorry for myself more than I should. Internally I was whining ALOT and looking for praise and approval from my family.  I know it was mostly hormonal but when I am there in that place it seems so lonely and I want to just throw in the towel and give it all up.  

It’s at those times, I hope in the future, I will think of my Mamaw and I will stop feeling sorry for myself and instead fix myself up and keep loving and serving those around me in the rawest way possible from deep down in my heart.

The Weekly Whine #fashion #inspiration
The Weekly Whine #fashion #inspiration
The Weekly Whine #fashion #inspiration

Enough whining already!  I’m loving this chambray top I picked up on whim when I popped in Francesca’s recently.  I already owned these wine colored shorts so it was a perfect combo.  I know this top will look great with white jeans too!  Francesca’s isn’t always hit or miss for me but this top is definitely a win!

35 Comments

  1. See you in that top, I love it. I doubt I would love it on me though. So sweet that you are there for your mamaw, I know it can be exhausting work, but it is good work too. I am sure she is so thankful for you. Here is hoping your Monday goes well.

  2. Girl you deserve a little wine! It is hard caring for an elderly person, and you’re right it is so much like taking care of a preschooler. Bless your mamaw’s heart, I cannot imagine experiencing all that loss but what a trooper she is! Yo come from good stock for sure!
    xo,
    Kellyann

  3. Glad you got some time in with your Mamaw yesterday. I need to add some more maroon/wine into my wardrobe, and that top is so cute! I almost stopped into Francesca’s the other day- they were having a BOGO sale on jewelry. Have a great day at work!

    1. I seriously never go to our mall but after seeing another blogger wearing some of the cute tops I popped in. I always forget a girl I use to workout with is the manager so it was like a reunion and she was so ready to find me something fun.

  4. I love your pictures! As soon as I saw the first picture I immediately thought “this is a great game day outfit” Gig’em Aggies. Hope you have a great day.

  5. Your mamaw sounds like such an amazing woman. I can’t even imagine what she’s been through losing all of her children. That’s just not the way that life should be. What’s even more amazing is that she still has such a positive attitude about life. I tend to be a bit of a Negative Nancy and it’s something that I’m really working on right now. You have every right to whine sometimes, though. Life can be really, really hard. ESPECIALLY when hormones get involved. Sheesh, being a woman stinks sometimes, doesn’t it?

  6. Your Mamaw sounds like an amazing woman. Life can be so hard for people. Sounds like it’s precious times you two spend together even if it is hard at times. You look fab in this outfit and I really like the glass of wine as the accessory 😉

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  7. Your Mamaw is lucky to have you. It’s so hard to watch people age and the realization that our time is coming. A little “whine” from time to time is good for the soul.😉 You look great it your cute top and shorts!

  8. I loved it so much when my grandfather would reminisce and tell me stories of his youth, his time with my grandmother, how things were when he worked as a court interpreter during the British rule in Borneo. It was SO fascinating. Then when he started to lose his memory and could no longer recognise us, I felt as though I had that small part of him to hold onto forever. He passed three months ago, and I feel so blessed to have had those moments with him, they’re my personal treasures, you know 🙂 just like your car rides with your Mamaw, they’re YOUR memories with her, and yours alone, so precious xoxo

  9. Baby girl, I love the posts where you pour your heart out bestest of all. You are so real and authentic and genuine and lovable. And real, did I say real?

    Your Mamaw could be my mom. I think it is true that while their short term memory begins to fade – who am I kidding by saying THEIR? mine’s fading fast – their long term memory becomes stronger. And maybe for just the reason you mentioned. So these precious souls can share stories and memories with us. My mom was full of some story last week when I visited her in Kentucky. I am so thankful that we still have her around at 90. And hope to hear years of stories still.

    Love your embroidered top. The only Francesca I know is PC’s old gf. Yuck. But the store must be divine! Great job pairing the top with your shorts and your glass of adult refreshment.

    Thanks for a refreshingly candid post. XO

  10. This was such a great post. What a special (if trying) time to have your mammaw. You will never regret it and you will always look back on these memories as fond ones. They call them the greatest generation for a reason, huh? Love the wine color- don’t see it enough right now. 🙂
    ~Melissa at https://freshairandfalselashes.com

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